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misswitch89
02 May 2012 @ 01:03 am
This was to be my virgin experience with Shakespeare in the Park and I was going to watch the play that I had first seen when I was 13 as part of my literature assignment. 

I love 12th Night for various reasons:
  • It is a comedy 
  • Concept of "love at first sight" is tested
  • The idea [from the perspective at which time the play was written] that there is a role in which a man is playing a woman  playing the role of a man 
  • That the fool is the most astute 
The production by SRT was beautifully executed. I went in looking forward to seeing my favourite seasoned actors Adrian Pang and Keagan Kang. I came out with love for several new actors. 

The actors playing Olivia, Orsonio, Sir Toby were high lights for me. Olivia's vivaciousness and her change in demeanor as she falls in love with Viola/Ceasario was hilarious to watch. I think my favorite scene with her was when she demanded that Cesario follow her back to her home after their "marriage" when it was in fact to Sebestian that she had made her martial vows. For one so in love, she failed to see the difference. She captured the comedic timings nicely and scene in which she chases after Cesario was a hoot!

The interactions between Orsonio and Cesario was delicious to watch. Especially when Viola/Cesario begins to fall in love with him...and there is a moment shared between and there is an almost kiss. Of course they spring apart but you can sense the tension. And in the final scene, where Cesario/Viola professes the love to Orsonio, he is in shock and he doesn't know what to do but the moment he realises it was Viola all along, they get married. So it begets the question, if he had been in love with Viola's personality and as Cesario, she had the same traits would that mean that Orsonio had feelings for Cesario too? Of course, in various adaptations of Twelfth Night, this homoerotic tension has been either played up or down depending on the audience. I might have a tiny crush on the actor playing Orsonio. He is delicious to watch and his voice was amazing.

I didn't know that Adrian Pang could sing! As the fool, he was a stand out character. This is my first time seeing him in a comedic role and it was amazing to watch him on stage. He has always been a favorite of mine; I have seen him in Closer, Dealer's Choice and The Pupil as a lawyer. His comedic chops is commendable. At one point, he came down and interacted with the audience and my gods, it was one of the most hilarious things! So Sit closer to the stage ;)

I could rave about how convincing Sir Toby was a drunk, Knight Andrews false bravado and the slight tremble he had in his voice conveyed his nervousness and lack of ability to understand when people were poking fun at him, Antonio who followed Sebestian to keep him safe and his delivery when he felt betrayed, etc. 

I loved this play! The fact that I got to watch it with my best friend made it even more awesome. We had Beer, Sushi and Kinder Breuno for our meal. When we arrived it was raining and the director got on stage and got us all to think positively that the rain would move so that the show could go on and Lo and behold, the rain had gone by 720pm. They got the stage cleaned up and the show begun. 
I can't wait for "The carnage of war" to be staged at the end of the year. In the meantime, there are other plays to look out for. 
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misswitch89
28 April 2012 @ 12:44 am

I don't know why but in the last few days, I have organised an outing for the ICS with whom I didn't remotely get along with. Infact I remember the times, Z would give the "stare" and that would chase them away. And now, I willingly organise a reunion. What am I thinking?

And today I met up with A! After 4 years, I thought things would be awkward between us but it was all good. We talked about the times we had in college. We remembered each others quirks! How she couldn't text and talk at the same time. How I couldn't eat chocolate without sneezing.

I think the time apart has done has good. We have grown. Matured into the people we knew we could become. The girls that we used to be is still in us, but different. 

She said that I had a likeable personality. I wanted to laugh at that. I had so many people who judged me that if it weren't for most of my friends like A, Z and S, I would have walked away from college. 

I want the kind of love that A has now. The kind where you are loved and cherished for being yourself, Did I mention that I have once again found myself in the enthrall of someone whose name begins with an M?

And the other day I found myself in the same magazine as V? Why doesn't he just disappear from my life? No,constantly he pops up like a bunny. A rabid one. 

I want to quit but I feel so guilty.


i might be tipsy so i am off to bed.
better late than never, 

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misswitch89
19 April 2012 @ 11:00 pm

"Now is it bihovely thyng to tell whiche been the sevene deedly synnes,this is to seyn,chiefaynes of synnes. Alle they renne in o lees, but in diverse manneres. Now been they cleped chieftaynes,for as muche as they been chief and spryng of alle othere synnes"

The 7 Synnes
Pride 
I am thinking of a very righteous looking cupcake.( Can cupcakes look righteous?) I imagine this cupcake to be this golden splendor with perfect icing and base with a crunch and it will look down at the rest of cupcake world and go,"Humff, is that all you can be?"
Envy
I am still figuring this out.
Anger
I have actually been toying with the idea of adding chilli to a chocolate mix. The tinge of spice that slowly burns just like anger which ignites slowly and then consumes completely when it gets out of control. Maybe in the form of chilli jelly in the center of the cupcake?
Sloth
This will be like eton mess in cupcakes form. What I envision is a cross between pavlova's and meringue topped with cream and fresh berries in a manner which indicates that it was thrown together like a last minute after thought. 
Greed
This has to be about over indulgence. Which is why, I shall be making a triple layer chocolate cupcake. A heavenly chocolate cake base with chocolate mousse that people die for as filling topped with chocolate ganache!

The filling is the mousse that I have made over the years and people love it :D  
Gluttony 
This one is done! Red velvet cupcakes with decadent cream cheese frosting. The cake is so soft that it literally melts in your mouth. It is so light that you almost don't expect how rich the frosting is. Well, one is never enough!
 
The whole batch with my first ever frosted cupcake!!!!


When you take a bite, know that there is no going back to the stuff you buy from shops. Nothing beats home cooked cupcakes that are fresh out of the oven! Can you see how moist that cake was?
Lust
This one is done too! Personally I call it " The Tart" because I thought it would be better than calling it " The whore". Why? Well, she looks all innocent with her golden lemon curd on top of fluffy lemon cupcakes...but when you take a bite, she packs a punch. So " The tart" was also a play on the taste.
*photo to be uploaded later since its in my sister's phone and she won't send it now as she claims to be sick.

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misswitch89
19 April 2012 @ 05:31 pm
I want to do a cupcake series based on the 7 sins :D
2 is done! The idea is to sell them for small parties! Wheeee. 
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misswitch89
18 April 2012 @ 11:26 am
#1: I was back at my old workplace. except they had moved into a newer shophouse and one room was forbidden from being opened. of course, it only made me want to open it more. I opened the door and i was taken somewhere else. what i remember is feeling inadequate about my abilities. that i wasn't good enough for them and no matter what i felt like an outsider.

#2: i was walking with my mother and sister. we had finished shopping and we were looking for ways to go back home. suddenly i see aish rai and her husband sitting at  a cafe and i knew we were related so i went up to them and i started talking to rai. apparently we couldnt talk in english or hindi so we settled on tamil. and i realised that the skin above her eyes were my mothers'. then we were walking towards the car all the while talking about her baby when i see my doctor uncle waiting to drive us back. 

#3: a filming of an exercise video was taking place. at least 1000 people were involved in it. i look at my sister and say, this is an airport. thats why the camera only pans 240 degrees and stops before the check in line area. we continue watching people in tight lycra outfits in highlighter colours which ought to have been banned in the 70s.

#4: war is going on. gods have come down to earth to join in the fight so that we mortals have a chance of surviving. they wear armor, the kind that was worn by the villian in Avatar. I was fighting together with them when one by one my team starts to fall. my only hope was with this dude and he was a demigod. a son of both god and man and he was mortally wounded. l was crying over him begging him not to die, not to leave me alone in the war. he was gone soon after he told a really lame joke. I was all alone. 

#5: i was back at pgp hostel to meet a few of my friends cos they needed help with the bio mod that they were doing as part of the GEM. my crush MX happened to be there as well. as i sat at the cafe with them, i realised that he wasn't into me at all cos it was like i was invisible to him. 

All these dreams in one night. Woke up feeling exhausted,alone and confused. SO for breakfast I bought myself mcdonald's hotcakes.

also at work, i really dont know how much longer i am going to be doing it. i feel its time for me to pursue what i am really good at; motivating others, body language and presentation styles. how hypocritical of me not to pursue my own dreams?
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misswitch89
16 March 2012 @ 05:53 pm

There was a time when I could tell for sure exactly what I wanted.

But today, I admit I am confused. I am not exactly sure how to analyse my situation. Most would say that I have been lucky. Whatever I wish for, I get.

While in school, I had been worried that i wouldn’t get a job because of my mediocre grades and viola, I chanced upon a CEO of a company and I got a job before I graduated.

Then in a cruel twist of fate, when T left Singapore, I had joked that a year from whence he left, he would ask “Shilpa?Shilpa who?” and just like that, we are like strangers today.

I went for a business competition and not only do I get a good group but I end up with the winning team!

SO the question if such good things happen to me, why then, am I still not happy?

In the beginning I used to jump out of bed to get to work. And now, I can barely be bothered. This makes me feel guilty because I know of people who would kill to get a job today.

But I am not satisfied with what I am doing. Yes,I am/will be able to make a difference to organisations who use our products but I want to make a change in someone. For instance, a friend of mine wanted to make a career switch from being a designer at a consultancy firm to a fashion designer. Over the period of time, we would talk and I would encourage her to pursue her dreams. Today, she has already show cased her collection at a fashion show. I want to be able to do that every day. Know that I am irreplaceable somewhere. Here at work, what I do can be replicated by anyone.

I need to know I am making an impact.

I feel this itch in me and the voice isn’t keeping quite.

All i feel like doing is packing my bags and running away.

 
 
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misswitch89
06 March 2012 @ 05:40 pm
Name: Shilpa S Nath 
November 5 1989 
12:16 PM Time Zone is IST 
Trivandrum, INDIA 

Rising Sign is in 07 Degrees Aquarius 
You like new ideas and concepts, but you prefer to discover them by yourself -- it is not easy for others to convert you to anything. You form your own opinions, but once you do form them, you then want to convince everyone else that they are correct. Try to be more tolerant of the opinions of others. You have a deep and abiding interest in science, mathematics, and the great social problems of the day. Very sympathetic toward the downtrodden, equality is your battle cry! You demand that those in authority be fair to all. You are an intellectual -- emotions and emotional people are difficult for you to understand. You are known for being calm, cool, detached and objective. 

Sun is in 12 Degrees Scorpio. 
Intense and complex by nature, you have extremely strong emotional reactions to most situations. Feelings are often very difficult for you to verbalize. Therefore you have a tendency to be very quiet - - to brood and think a lot. You seldom get overtly angry, but, when you do, you are furious and unforgiving. When you make an emotional commitment, it is total -- you are not attracted to superficial or casual relationships. If you are challenged, you take it as a personal affront and tend to lash out and fight back in a vengeful manner. You love mysteries and the supernatural. A good detective, you love getting to the roots of problems and you enjoy finding out what makes other people tick. You are known to be very willful, very powerful and quite tenacious! 

Moon is in 27 Degrees Capricorn. 
You are serious and shy and very uncomfortable in those situations where spontaneous and exuberant emotional reactions seem called for. An achiever, you prefer doing practical, worthwhile things that produce tangible results. You need role models to respect, love and emulate. You tend to feel that you're a failure unless you get an important and highly respected position in life. Don't be so hard on yourself! For you, practical needs always win out over emotional considerations. Remember that you too have the right to comfort, security and love. Dutiful and patient, when you make an emotional commitment, you sign on for the long haul -- your love is long- enduring. 

Mercury is in 09 Degrees Scorpio. 
You are a born investigator. You are fascinated by secrets and mysteries and unanswered questions of any kind. When you become upset or angry, your emotional reactions are overpowering -- reason and logic disappear in an uncontrollable passionate outburst. You tend to keep your thoughts secret and bottled up and this makes others regard you with suspicion. It is not that you are trying purposely to be evasive, it is just that you would rather not deal with the explosions and hassles that often occur when you reveal your true feelings and opinions. Your sense of humor tends toward sarcasm and irony. 

Venus is in 29 Degrees Sagittarius. 
You are very aware of the need to maintain a high sense of morality in a relationship. Your loyalty and interest will remain constant in any relationship (either friendly, personal or business) that is based on fairness, honesty and justice. But you will become greatly hurt and disappointed if the other person takes any but the high road with you. Also, you cannot tolerate anyone being overly emotionally possessive of you. You are known for your friendly, outspoken manner. 

Mars is in 00 Degrees Scorpio. 
Your likes and dislikes are strong and intense, never casual or superficial. You are known for your persistence and willful obsession. Once you have decided on a course of action, you are unstoppable. Your emotional actions tend to be extreme, although you try to keep them muted. You are not quick to anger, you do slow burns. And you tend to release your anger as sarcasm or irony. Beware of your tendency to hold grudges and to be vengeful. When you do fight, or release your internal tensions, you do so body and soul -- you become totally passionate and your outbursts are awesome to behold. 

Jupiter is in 10 Degrees Cancer. 
You must be emotionally secure in order to grow and develop. You are happiest when your family and community support and nourish you and boost your morale. Whether your childhood experiences of love and emotional dependability were positive or negative will set the tone for your emotional growth and stability as an adult. When you feel at ease with yourself, you are able to offer assistance to those who need a helping hand. 

Saturn is in 09 Degrees Capricorn. 
Very serious-minded and mature, you have the ability to take on responsibilities and to carry out important duties. You can also be trusted to be extremely practical and thrifty. A good organizer, you are the ideal one to be counted on to take a clearly defined project through to its logical conclusion. An achiever, you pride yourself on your ability to focus your attention totally on some worthy goal and then attain it. 

Uranus is in 02 Degrees Capricorn. 
You, and your peer group as well, seek out practical solutions to a changing society's attitudes to customs, traditions and authority structures. Your logical and orderly manner of dealing with these matters will result in permanent and carefully planned, but sweeping, reforms. 

Neptune is in 10 Degrees Capricorn. 
You, and your entire generation, will idealize work, practicality and the ability to attain reasonable goals. But, because you will also stress the need to be selfless and giving, you may find it difficult to attain your goals unless you have lowered your expectations on all fronts. 

Pluto is in 15 Degrees Scorpio. 
For your entire generation, this is a period of intense research and discovery in areas that were heretofore considered mysterious, remote or taboo. The root causes for many complex occurrences will be unearthed due to the intensity and thoroughness of the search. 

N. Node is in 21 Degrees Aquarius. 
As long as someone else (or a group or organization) appeals to your intellectual sensibilities, you'll try to ally yourself with them in some way. You may find that you always seem to get involved with many wide-ranging groups -- so much so that you find it difficult to fit them all into your busy schedule. Your many friends and acquaintances provide you with needed stimulation. You're loyal and fair-minded -- you try to spend time equally with all your friends, never concentrating on just one or two for any length of time. Although probably quite conservative yourself, you're attracted to those who are a bit offbeat or eccentric -- you enjoy watching their minds work. 

 
 
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misswitch89
06 March 2012 @ 01:05 pm

birth chart

Birth Chart

This birth chart shows the positions of the planets of shilpa

The sun represents vitality, a sense of individuality and outward-shining creative energy.

Sun in Scorpio

Physical energy and courage. Strong passions. Regeneration and improvement. Strong sexual powers.

Weaknesses: She is suspicious, defiant, extremist: she has a vindictive nature. Can turn violent.

Scorpio ascendant Aquarius

Sun in X

Successful career is guaranteed, but may sometimes come late.

476 Conjunction Sun – Mercury

She is intelligent and knows what she wants. Is a good organizer, she likes moving, travel. She likes literature.

145 Trine Sun – Jupiter

She has high social ambitions, respects justice and the law. She is tolerant, optimistic, kindly. She has every chance for professional success in a strictly legal setting.

153 Sextile Sun – Saturn

She likes to work alone, quietly. She pays attention to detail, is serious, methodical, patient and can take on long, difficult and delicate tasks, and complete them.

112 Sextile Sun – Neptune

She has a fertile imagination, is full of inspiration, and very emotional – all qualities that she uses on the professional level. She likes the Arts, beauty.

514 Conjunction Sun – Pluto

She is aware of the goal to be achieved. She is strong, and always picks herself up after a setback.

-9 Square Sun – Ascendant

She has a lot of ambition, but is pretentious, vain and does not realize when her schemes are too ambitious, and therefore unattainable.

The moon represents a reaction, unconscious pre-destination, and the self-image.

Moon in Capricorn

Fearful, taciturn, reserved. Attracted to politics. Has few friends because of reserved nature. Success comes by means of other people, who recognize her qualities.

Weaknesses: material worries, savings, restrictions. Does not get carried away by love.

Moon in XII

Curious and inquisitorial nature. She likes peace and quiet, being alone.

-62 Square Moon – Mars

She is very emotional and is driven to do things by her emotions. She does not think things over or through in a given situation. She is irascible and sometimes violent. Marital disputes.

Mercury represents communication, Cartesian and logical spirit.

Mercury in Scorpio

Plays on words, argues, criticizes, jokes, is ironical, mocks. She is crafty and always finds a solution to a problem.

Weaknesses: mocks, derides, disputes, constantly picks a quarrel. A really awkward customer.

Mercury in IX

Her thirst for knowledge is never satisfied. She is full of mental activity. She undertakes exhaustive studies, always studying for pleasure. Likes journeys to faraway places, and can go to live abroad.

106 Conjunction Mercury – Mars

She likes to discuss, likes polemic. She has good judgement and is determined. She is a worker and has lots of energy. She has a lively intelligence and goes to the heart of things.

141 Trine Mercury – Jupiter

She is intelligent, has big ideas: she is tolerant and has a strong sense of justice. She has good judgement, good sense and has her feet on the ground. She has the “gift of the gab”, and likes to speak, she also likes literature. She is erudite and will normally be successful socially.

345 Sextile Mercury – Saturn

171 Sextile Mercury – Neptune

She can put down in writing everything that her imagination and intuition dictates.

238 Conjunction Mercury – Pluto

She has a great sense of observation and quickly grasps the situation. She is crafty, subtle and critical.

-53 Square Mercury – Ascendant

She likes to criticize, to gossip. Frequently arguing, she is nervous but also disturbed. She looks out too much for a verbal battle, and is provoking.

Venus represents an interest for emotions and values, exchange and sharing with others.

Venus in Sagittarius

Open-heartedness, devotion, generosity, charity, altruism. She likes foreigners or she can find love abroad. Has problems with the family or with the society in which she lives. She looks for affection, love far from the family circle or from the native country.

Weaknesses: she loves adventure and risk, and the unforeseen is always to be expected.

Venus in XI

Successful professional life in great part due to good relationships, friends or patrons. She finds love in the circle of friends.

323 Sextile Venus – Mars

She is amorous, not a peaceful and calm lover but a passionate one with a strong temperament. She is demonstrative in love, and likes healthy pleasures. She enjoys life to the full.

13 Conjunction Venus – Saturn

She has a good grasp of reality and of duty. She is thrifty, reserved and does not show off. She likes truth and justice. In love, her sentiments are sincere and deep, she never plays false. She is, of course, faithful in love and friendship. She can love a much older person and appreciates her intelligence and good sense.

289 Conjunction Venus – Uranus

independent in love. Her love life is rich, but with passing love affairs. She tires quickly and is scared of losing her liberty. If she marries, she will regret it. She has that little something that attracts the opposite sex: she likes amorous adventures, she is romantic. She is the eternal lover and, of course, is unfaithful if she has a serious relationship. She likes art, anything new.

Mars represents the desire for action and physical energy.

Mars in Scorpio

Aggressiveness can lead to a fight against society, the family, injustice in general and can sometimes be very violent. She can be the leader of an organization or a union, but the aggressiveness can be directed towards self-destruction if it does not have an outlet. The latter is by no means certain, as it is difficult to contain without snapping.

Weaknesses: passion, rage, fanaticism, quarrels.

Mars in IX

Deeply rooted opinions, which she knows how to defend energetically. At a certain moment of life, she can fight for a particular ideal but might abandon it along the way, being less convinced than at the beginning of its virtue or because she realizes that it is a losing battle. Conflict abroad or with foreigners.

166 Sextile Mars – Uranus

She possesses exceptional energy. She is impulsive but bold. She takes on risky enterprises for the good of the community, with all the energy she possesses. She has a great need of her independence, likes her freedom of action.

Jupiter represents expansion and grace.

Jupiter in Cancer

Peaceful, calm nature. Fertile imagination. Likes home life and material comforts. A good cook, because she is relatively greedy and takes pleasure in conjuring up little things that are good to eat.

Weakness: She likes to eat too much, likes own home and comfort too much and has the tendency to be a stay-at-home, going out without any pleasure because home is always best.

Jupiter in VI

She has a responsible job in an organization. Dislikes working for herself. She helps the sick and under-privileged with kindness. Probably overdoes the good life, she likes animals, the country.

-307 Opposition Jupiter – Saturn

She is indifferent to what goes on around her, is mistrustful and always unsatisfied. She is easily irritated.

-20 Opposition Jupiter – Uranus

She is too independent and her liberty is all-important. She lacks diplomacy, and her extravagance is shocking. She likes verbal battles and espouses extremist ideas in order to shock her companions. She has a number of internal tensions.

-170 Opposition Jupiter – Neptune

She is easily influenced. She is a dreamer, who lets herself be seduced by fine words, which are not always sincere. She does not see wickedness and is often fooled by people.

55 Trine Jupiter – Pluto

She likes to direct, is intelligent and is an organizer of the first order.

Saturn represents contraction and effort.

Saturn in Capricorn

She is scrupulous, honest, correct, worthy and respectable.

Weaknesses: melancholy, sullenness, disappointment and bitterness.

Saturn in XII

She likes quiet and solitude above everything. She looks for work (or can work) alone, without being bothered. She hates chatting, outside noises.

125 Conjunction Saturn – Uranus

She knows how to be on top of the situation. She perseveres, is determined but ingenious and original. She is very practical. She proceeds slowly, but is always bound to achieve her objectives in the end.

342 Conjunction Saturn – Neptune

Her plans are realized in a methodical fashion, she works hard to achieve success.

Uranus represents individual liberty, egoistic liberty.

Uranus in Capricorn

A great battler. She has so much power, that one thinks nothing can defeat her. Her mission in society, in the world means everything to her.

Uranus in XI

Her freedom is important to her, even with regard to friends. These are extravagant, original, intellectual. They are not from the same background and have a different up-bringing.

49 Conjunction Uranus – Neptune

Neptune represents transcendental liberty, non-egoistic liberty.

Neptune in Capricorn

She is discerning, wise and sensible.

Neptune in XII

She likes isolation, a withdrawn life, dreams and meditation. She has little desire for action.

2 Sextile Neptune – Pluto

Pluto represents transformations, mutations and elimination.

Pluto in Scorpio

Great sexual activity.

House I is the area of self identity. The ascendant is a symbol of how one acts in life. It is the image of the personality as seen by other, and the attitude that one has of life.

Scorpio ascendant Aquarius

Ascendant in Aquarius

Sheloves meeting people, discussing until the wee hours of the morning. Likes to please, happily flits about. Is interested in politics, is a member of a youth organization, or one that fights for human rights.

House II is the area of material security.

House II in Pisces

Easy success in professional life thanks to intelligence, ingeniousness and a few friends. Sheis careful with money without being miserly, because she is generous.

House III is the area of social and intellectual learning.

House III in Aries

Lively intelligence. She is ambitious. She is always ready for any initiative requiring change or novelty.

House IV is the area of action and emotion.

House IV in Taurus

Makes a good mother. Likes to be at home, with the little family for company. Appreciates comfort, peace and quiet, and simple but good food!. Takes care of what she possesses wisely.

House V is the area of self-security.

House V in Gemini

Likes to please: She can spend hours in the bathroom, preparing to go out, in the hope of meeting someone to dazzle. Likes interminable discussions with friends.

House VI is the area of learning by material transaction.

House VI in Cancer

Likes jobs in contact with the public. Weak point: the stomach.

House VII is the area of social et intellectual action.

House VII in Leo

Marriage for love, based on confidence, honesty, sincerity.

House VIII is the area of emotional security and of security of the soul.

House VIII in Virgo

Small inheritances. Happy old age, natural death.

House IX is the area of learning that shapes the identity.

House IX in Libra

Likes justice, honesty, loyalty. Make good lawyers.

House X is the area of material action. The Mid-heaven represents the work one will do in his life, the place one will take in the world of society. It becomes more important as one grows older

House X in Scorpio

Likes professions that involve a certain risk. Those in the police field are recommended. She likes to investigate. She is curious by nature, takes risks and fights to succeed.

House XI is the area of search for social and intellectual security.

House XI in Sagittarius

Loves above all travel, adventure and friends are often from abroad.

House XII is the area of education and of emotion.

House XII in Capricorn

Disappointments are difficult to digest, the bitterness can last a long time before she is able to react positively.


 
 
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misswitch89
05 March 2012 @ 05:10 pm
I had a dream last night. It felt so real I didn't want to wake up.

I dreamt that the reason you didn't call was because you were busy. That you were studying for a test to get accredited for yet another language. We talked about silly things and other topics which I can't remember now. What I remember was that we laughed a lot. Just like old times. How sometimes we didn't have to say anything at all but we understood each other just the same. Our special type of  homojo. 

I guess I really miss you. I miss the fact that you haven't called even when I wrote to you that I did. The last time I told you I missed you, you called me the moment you woke up and we talked for hours. 

I hate that I miss you so. Despite everything. I suppose I have never been good at letting go. Or my unwavering stupidity of never stopping to believe in people I consider my friends. 

The other dream I had however made me wish it was a dream. And it was! 

I was at the startup competition and I was not picked to be part of a team. I suppose its my insecurity creeping out. That nobody would think me worthy of being part of this competition. I have no skills; I can only offer my ideas and copywriting skills. I hope it will be enough. Found out through a friend that V will be there. As a participant. Joy. He is an awesome programmer. Whichever group gets him will be lucky. 

I just want this week to be over. 

"he's alive, but I feel dead inside without him" 
 
 
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